Philosopher27's Blog

OK, so here’s the deal. I am going to be using my blog for a while as a journal because frankly, I can’t find a notebook. I am having surgery 3/3/11. That is next Thursday. Before that happens, I need to get this place in order because I will be laid up for a while. Normally, it is very clean around here but my routines have slacked off because of the pain I have been in. So, I am going to get as many things accomplished before work as possible.

    This morning I called work to make sure they had the necessary paper work to take to the doctor so I can get the time off I will need to recover and hopefully get some pay during the weeks I will be off. I pay into a program for short term disability and if that comes through, I will be very happy, if not, that is why I save for things. I have enough money saved up to keep the bills paid for 2 months. I should only be off work 3 – 4 weeks depending on the recovery time. I did however, spend a little money on a couple of new books to read while I am unable to get up and move around. I really dislike not working so I figured I would need something to keep my mind occupied and not simply sleep all the time.

The doctor’s office opens at 8 am so I will call and find out how late they are open and getting the paperwork in there today will be on my to do list.

TO DO:

1. I have one load of laundry to go into the washer, and another going in the dryer right now.
   
2. Do the dishes and put away the clean dishes
   
3. Clear the table and the counters
   
4. Clean the microwave
   
5. Sweep and wet jet the kitchen floor
   
6. Pick up and put away anything that doesn’t belong in the living room.
   
7. Wipe down the entertainment center
   
8. Sweep and mop the living room floor
   
9. Simply clean up my room and make the bed
   
10. Clean up the boys room (already basically clean)
    
11. Get paperwork to the doctor
    

OK. That is what needs to be done right now. I do have to work today also, so I am hoping everything goes smoothly.

Today’s blog 1/1/2011 7:46 PM

He abused me, mistreated me, defeated me, robbed me. Harboring such thoughts keeps hatred alive. -Dhammapada

    I do not want to live with hatred. I am letting go of those kinds of thoughts that keep anger and mistrust alive inside of me. Let go. Release. For me letting go of hatred also means letting go of fear. I know that the symptoms of PTSD will not leave immediately but it will. I have faith that should I let go of the anger, hatred, and fear, the symptoms will decrease until they are no longer a part of me.

My Goals for 2011

I have decided that to write down all of the goals I have for 2011 is quite a daunting task. So I have decided to break it down by writing 3 goals per day. This is today’s list.

1. Get leaky roof fixed (Spring)
   
2. Get washer hooked up (Spring). Right now, my dryer is hooked up and I use it daily, but to actually wash the clothes I have to take them across the street to the neighbors and then bring them home to dry. It is not too much of a bother because I live in a trailer park and it is a very short distance, but with my physical problems it is by no means an easy task.
   
3. Paint the living room and stencil butterflies along the top of the walls (I will begin this by purchasing one thing I will need per week until all supplies are ready.)

Today’s Thoughtful Blog.

Mind is the forerunner of all actions. All deeds are led by mind, created by mind. If one speaks or acts with a serene mind, happiness follows, As surely as one’s shadow. – Dhammapada

    Today is day 2 of practicing having a serene mind and concentrating my efforts with mindful attention. I have accomplished a great deal in a short amount of time. It just goes to show me that trying to multitask is really the wrong way to go about getting a great number of things accomplished. Instead of getting a lot done, you get a lot of nothing done. It feels good to see that most of the things on my list of daily adventures is crossed off. I say daily adventures instead of chores just because it is more up lifting.

    One task that is still to be done on my list is to write down my goals for 2011. I know I have said in the past to live in the present moment but for me, if I don’t have my goals listed then I tend to run around in circles and wonder what to do next. I have an EASIER time focusing on the present moment activities if I know what those activities are. It is like building a house. You don’t just put windows and boards together, you have a plan. You can focus on the details as you go if you know what the plan is. Does that make sense? I will most likely blog my list once I have it completed. My intent is to complete the list before 8 pm est.

Until then,

Be mindful and content J

Mind is the forerunner of all actions. All deeds are led by mind, created by mind. If one speaks or acts with a corrupt mind, suffering follows, as the wheel follows the hoof of an ox pulling a cart. –Dhammapada

Sometimes I get so frustrated when my kids are bickering or simply being mean to each other. I try to stay calm but sometimes I fail. I think that it is important to remain mindful during these times and work harder at settling disputes rather than becoming a part of the problem. That is my first thoughts of what I will accomplish for the year 2011. I am going to practice mindfulness every day in everything I do. I do realize that sometimes it is easier to just keep back and pretend that it isn’t happening but that isn’t going to solve the problems either.

Its OK

It is delightful at times having children. My son decided it was a good idea to meditate under the kitchen table. I am not sure why. It made him happy though, so it is OK J

It is important to remember

that children can meditate also. It helps them as much as it helps adults. So the next time you meditate, if you have children, ask if they would like to join you. Meditation can be a private time or it can be a family experience. Give it a try.