September 27, 2010 at 1:47 am (Borderline Personality Disorder, Mindful)
Tags: action, anger, benefit, Buddhism, calm, change, Education, kindness, Mindful, mindfulness, present moment awareness, skills, wisemind
Practicing Kind Speech
When people have relationships with others it is inevitable to come into contact with disagreements or differences of opinion. These relationships can be anyone from those you work with to your friends, family and children. So, what can we do when we encounter conflict?
I have a 10 year old who has Autism (very mild) but has severe anger issues when things do not go his way. He gets very hostile and aggressive with intense bouts of rage. At times it is very difficult for me to control my own emotions during these times. I have found though that If I am able to remain in control it is easier for him to regain his own control. To do this, I have to watch my own speech and not focus on his. I practice listening to what he is saying and responding in a way that is both validating and kind, but at the same time, I am the parent. I do have to set some limits to prevent him from harming either himself or other. This is the tricky part because I am human. I have emotions and it is not always easy to keep them in check when a 160 pound, 5′ 3″ ten year old is screaming and raging right in my face. However, I am very conscious of the fact that if I rage with him, it will solve no problems and usually make the situation worse and leaves us both feeling exceedingly bad. What I have learned raising this child is that I do not have to let my emotions control me. Rather, I do not even have to see the rage as directed at me. Instead, I can see it for what it is. A child who has lost control and is very insecure and unable to handle the intense feelings that is inside his mind.
What I have described is a bit on the extreme side compared to what we all handle on a day to day basis. However, it is valuable because it has shown me that I can deal with other people being angry without becoming angry myself. Have you ever heard the phrase, “Kill them with kindness” or “You catch more flies with honey than vinegar”? These sayings are so on point. When you “fight fire with fire” all you do is cause more destruction and more fire. Also, if someone is treating you badly and speaking unkindly to you, it is important to try to not take it personally because everybody has bad days. People get tired, stressed, grouchy, hungry and sad. Most of the time if someone is yelling at you it is not because you deserve it, but rather they are unsure of how to deal with their own emotions, thus they are taking them out on you. There are several ways to handle a situation where one person is being difficult toward you. You can say, “I’m sorry”. So many times a simple apology will go a long way, whether you actually did something wrong or not. Remaining calm, you will do a lot to help the other person regain control. Speak quietly. When you speak quietly, it forces the other person to lower their voice in order to hear you. When you can do nothing more, do nothing. Do not egg them on or let your own emotions get in the way of your own wise mind. Nobody can make you feel anything.
Stephen R. Covey once said, “Our ultimate freedom is the right and power to decide how anybody or anything outside ourselves will affect us.”
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September 22, 2010 at 12:40 am (Borderline Personality Disorder, Buddhism, DBT, Mindful, Recovery)
Tags: action, anger, benefit, blog, Buddhism, calm, change, Education, letting go, meditation, Mindful, present moment awareness, stress relief, thinking, wisemind
Hardship Brings New Incentive to Practice Life Skills
I am having a hard time right now with coping with things lately. Normally, meditation works to solve stress that I find myself in. Unfortunately, Monkey Mind has taken over and I have decided that it is time to put my DBT (Dialectic Behavioral Therapy) Skills to work. I learned these skills some time ago and found a great deal of success in overcoming much of the anxious tension that fills me up.
The first thing to do is to determine what is really causing the problems. I believe there are several issues going on at the same time.
- I am not getting enough sleep. I do actually go into my bed but falling asleep is just not happening lately.
- Cherokee is having major anger issues (partly due to Aspergers syndrome, and partly due to his brother constantly egging him on).
- Scottie, well, I wrote a post about him last night. He is 14 years old and is very mouthy lately. I just can’t seem to do anything to make this child happy lately.
- I am OCD about a clean house and it just isn’t up to my standards which makes me feel tense.
Now that I have listed the things that are problems for me, I can begin to analyze them and formulate solutions. Sometimes, there really is no solution and if there is no answer then it is not a problem and I will work to let it go.
One of the first things I need to do is reduce my vulnerability to Emotion Mind. This means using the PLEASE skills.
P L(Treat PhysicaL Illness)
E (Balanced Eating)
A (Avoid mood altering drugs and alcohol)
S (balance Sleep)
E (Exercise)
Another Skill I am going to work on is One-in-the-Moment. This means being mindful of what I am doing and only doing one thing at a time. It will be especially helpful in getting my house back under control. I got a pretty good start on it today by cleaning out two closets that have been bothering my mind due to the fact that they were accumulating just stuff. I am a strong proponent of having nothing that is not a need. So, I went through and tossed those things that were not necessary to hold on to.
Using One in the Moment will also help with my communication with the children. It is really easy to let the squabbling and fighting escalate to an unmanageable level when I am trying to deal with the boys and do other things. I believe that if I handle it as soon as it starts and do it directly, not from another room, that I can eliminate some of the tension.
So, for the next week these are the two skills that I am going to focus on. I will be posting progress and results as the week moves forward.
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September 21, 2010 at 2:39 am (Borderline Personality Disorder, letting go, mindfulness, Recovery)
Tags: action, blog, Buddhism, change, depression, forgiveness, goals, Mindful, wisemind
When I was a Child
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“When I was a child I spoke as a child I understood as a child I thought as a child; but when I became a man I put away childish things.” I Cor. xiii. 11.
This is from the Christian Bible and though I am Buddhist, I find great respect for the teachings there in. This particular phrase seems more and more real as each day moves forward. You see, I have 2 children. One is 14 and the other is 10 years of age. I remember when I was 14 that I gave my mom a run for her money. I isolated myself when I wasn’t in school or working. I was very withdrawn and for the most part depressed and angry at the same time. Back then, as now, I suffered from a personality disorder called BPD or Borderline Personality Disorder. Back then, I fought for independence. I withdrew from everyone I cared about because I saw everything as black and white, love and hate. I was so scared of abandonment that I basically abandoned them before they did me.
This post however, is not about me. I just thought it was important to give a bit of background. This post is about my son, Scottie. He is caught in that place between child and man. On one hand, he is struggling to define himself. I see him struggling to figure out just who he is. At times, he acts like his friends; and at other times he is standing above everyone to be who he believes he is. There seems to be a fight within his mind about standing out and fitting in. He puts on a tough front but at times he lets me see that insecure boy that is still within him. Those times it seems, are few and far between, but they are there. I wonder if perhaps he has Borderline disorder as well, or perhaps the type of depression I went through as a young teen.
The quote above appears to be written for Scottie. When he was a child he spoke like a child. I heard, “I love you Mom!” 20 times a day. He wanted nothing more than to be with me. I remember spending hours upon hours teaching him and coaching him. I remember pushing him on the swings and playing hide and seek. Now he neither speaks like a child nor an adult. I hear him venting frustration at every turn. In my own opinion, I would like to just let it be. Let him learn from his own mistakes. I however am forced by society and those who constantly tell me that I should do this or that to be more forceful toward him. I am basically forced to lay punishment for mistakes. I do not believe this is the answer. I believe that punishment will not correct mistakes but will make the “child” resentful. I believe that mistakes are a part of growing up. I further believe in natural consequences. I wish I could just raise him the way I want to but society dictates what I have to do and that is frustrating for both of us.
So, when is enough, enough? How far do I go? How far will he go? Will he become a secure adult if he is allowed to make mistakes without punishment or consequences? Who is right? These are a few questions that sit in my own mind. Questions for which there are no real answers. Only time will tell.
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July 15, 2010 at 2:24 am (letting go, meditation, Mindful, mindfulness, Uncategorized)
Tags: blog, calm, change, empty, goals, kindness, letting go, Mindful, mindfulness, observe, peaceful, present moment awareness, silence, thinking, wisemind
How Tough are You?
Can you walk through this world completely alone, observing those around you but never touching, never speaking, never being truly involved? Can you live without ever giving an opinion on anything? Is it really necessary to give an opinion on anything? Would it matter in the end if you spoke your mind or if you remained silent and kind? Too often opinions are just empty words meant as bricks to throw at another. How often does your opinion actually mirror that of another? The answer, if you were being honest with yourself, is rarely and possibly never. What is the point? People play devil’s advocate just to have something to do or something to talk about.
Can you be alone? Do you always look for a reason to be around others? Can you be happy in the company of only yourself? There is so much noise in our world that so many people don’t know how to be quiet and live in the quiet. Most of the people I know must have the television or radio on just to be able to go to sleep. Their lives are filled with noise and activity. There doesn’t seem to be any stillness left. People seem to be uncomfortable with silence and stillness. To me it seems they don’t appreciate what is around them and most times don’t even really know what is around them. Just to test this, close your eyes right now and picture the room you are sitting in. Try to see it exactly the way it is the minute you walked in. Did you see the cobweb in the corner? Did you see the sock on the floor or even the color of your child’s clothes? These are the details we miss when we don’t know silence. To know silence is to know solitude but not only that around you but within you.
A wolf walks alone and one can hear its howl in the wind late at night. It is a long, seemingly lonely, howl, but is it truly lonely? Or, is it a wail of primal pleasure as it celebrates its life? When the moon rises and it’s senses become alert, its eyes glisten with life. Its nose twitches as it picks up the scent of its next meal. It does not take for granted where its next meal is going to come from. It can feel the heartbeat of its prey. Its pulse races as it stalks then chases and brings down its meal. As its teeth sink into the throat of another creature, the warm blood spills into its mouth. Its teeth rip flesh from bone and it drinks of the life within the animal. The wolf knows that each meal may be its last for some time and thus experiences the meal fully. When is the last time you actually took the time to taste your food? Can you eat in silence and feel the food within your mouth. Can you smell and taste the various flavors? When is the last time you have experienced a meal and not just eaten it?
Make choices on purpose. Live on purpose. Be silent. Experience everything.
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March 3, 2010 at 2:07 pm (letting go)
Tags: Buddhism, forgiveness, goals, happy, help, kindness, letting go, Mindful, mindfulness, peaceful, skills, thinking, wisemind
There is No Companionship with a Fool.
It occurred to me recently that I have been keeping the company of a fool. I completely believe that forgiveness is essential to a peaceful mind. I further hold close to me a saying from Ajahn Brahm who in a story said that one should forgive always one more time. I further thought that to be loyal to this philosophy that I should let things go when someone wrongs me or hurts me in some way. However, sometimes, people take advantage of this forgiveness. They take it lightly and just assume they can do or say what ever they want because they know they can get away with it. Perhaps, when you keep the company of fools you become one yourself. Sometimes, you have to say enough is enough and while you can still forgive, it may be time to let go of the relationship, friendship, or companionship. The Dhammapada says, “If on one’s way one does not come across one’s better or an equal, then one should press on resolutely alone. There is no companionship with a fool.”
There comes a time when we must move forward and stop treading water. When we realize that we have been standing still when we should have been moving it can be a disconcerting feeling. So what do you do when you know that enough is enough. What do you do when you have been reliant on a fool.
- Reclaim yourself.
- Know that there are options beyond what you have been using.
- Find your stillness and it does not hurt to let go.
I am not saying that it may not cause difficulty to let go but if holding on is hurting you, what is more difficult?
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February 2, 2010 at 6:42 pm (Recovery)
Tags: action, anger, benefit, blog, blogging, dream, dreaming, Education, forgiveness, goals, help, kindness, Mindful, observe, pain, silence, the dream, thinking
The Dream
I am standing in front of a large crowd. I am speaking to a thousand women. Some of the women are battered and bruised. Some are drug addicts and alcoholics. I see some women screaming in pain and anger but I hear no sound other than the sound of my own voice. It appears as though the women in the audience before me are standing in some sort of blazing lava. It is what I imagine Hell must look like if there is one. Their faces are contorted with torment. It is darkness all around them. The only light I see is on me. It is like I am bathed in a spotlight. I am not afraid. I just know that I have to help them. I have to save them from the hell they writhe in. That is the over powering emotion of the dream. It feels like I am being pulled to help. They beg me with their eyes. I do not know the faces of the women but they seem familiar to me for some reason. I am certain that I can help them. I can show them a way out of the misery. They are stuck, trapped. I can help them break the chains that bind them in place. Maybe those chains are made of fear and hatred and ill-will. The chains could be their inability to find their own direction.
This has been a recurring dream for the past couple of years but seems to be more present lately and much more vivid. I remember the dream during the waking hours. When the grey light of the winter sun filters through the windows and I am sitting in silence, the image appears in my mind without my beckoning. Sometimes in my meditation I can see their faces. There is always the silence though. I live inside the silence as much as I can. This is how I gain insight. I meditate often. I see things clearly and can experience things more fully. That is a great benefit of meditation. But I wonder about the dream and the images from time to time. Is this dream trying to tell me something? Is it a premonition of what is to come? Or, is it a journey that I am supposed to begin? I have been on death’s door twice with machines pumping my heart and ventilator breathing for me. It was the second time when the dreams started. The urge to do something is so strong that at times I feel like I need to remember something I have forgotten. I feel like I must move in the direction of seeing that dream in real life. I do not claim to be enlightened or even close to it, but something is definitely going on because I know it the way I know my own face in the mirror.
It occurs to me that I wonder if I am worthy of helping those that are calling out to me. Can I really help? Will I know the right thing to say at the right time? I sometimes feel like I am in a car with the motor running and my foot on the break pedal. What will happen if I begin to move?
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January 27, 2010 at 10:19 pm (Mindful)
Tags: benefit, calm, change, chronic fatigue, depression, empty, fatigue, good, happy, letting go, Mindful, mindfulness, observe, peaceful, present moment awareness, silence, thinking
SILENCE
Silence propagates itself, and the longer talk has been suspended, the more difficult it is to find anything to say.
– Samuel Johnson
So many people are plagued with chronic fatigue. Days are filled with activity and noise. I don’t just mean the noise of the cars passing on the street or trains and busses that take us from one place to another but also the noise of technology which in turn creates noise within our brains and our minds. It is little wonder that we experience this fatigue when we wake each morning and it lasts throughout the day. When the noise fills our every waking moment we can never truly relax. Our minds crave silence. It is within the silence that we can overcome the fatigue and find peace in ourselves and our lives.
How many times do you wake up and still feel tired and grumpy. Even the sound of your child’s voice or your loved one in the shower makes you want to hide in the solitude of your bed under the covers. How many times do you snap at your child or others when they ask you a question? Do you wake up in the morning and just listen to the sound of silence in your bedroom? It feels so comforting.. and it is. Have you ever taken a walk in a quiet park or down a road with no traffic? If so, did you find that you stopped thinking? It is an amazing experience when you can move inside silence. For me, it is a feeling very similar to love. It is like rocking a sleeping infant or being rocked as a small child when you are curled up on your mother’s lap with your head on her chest. It is comforting and consuming. It is love.
Do you want to feel better? Do you want to end the fatigue? If you do, find your silence. Everyday. Turn off the phone. Turn off the television, radio, and computers. Light a candle or burn some incense if you like that kind of thing. Don’t talk. Still your mind, by moving into the space between the words. The more you do this, the more you will want to do this. You can start by doing this for one hour per day. You can do it by going for a silent walk, meditating, or even just sitting. Anything to get away from the sounds outside and inside. Eventually you will find that one hour turns into two hours and those two hours turns into longer periods. Any time of day will work but I find that I enjoy it first thing in the morning. I get up before anyone else. I sit with a cup of coffee and a vanilla candle. I usually just sit on my couch and watch the sun rise out my window. On days when others have to be up early I do this and just sit look at my candle flame with no thoughts, no sounds, inside the space between words and thoughts. When I do this in the early morning, I can handle everything so much more easily. I can show my boys that I love them when they wake up instead of snapping at them for their small requests. I can go to work in the afternoon and not feel completely drug out.
When is the last time you experienced silence? I offer this challenge to all of you, for one hour today or tomorrow shut off and shut down your technology and the thoughts of present and past. Sit or walk. Just find your silence.
Thank you for reading.
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January 16, 2010 at 5:23 am (Uncategorized)
Tags: benefit, blogging, Buddhism, calm, change, depression, Education, happy, help, kindness, letting go, meditation, mind, Mindful, mindfulness, observe, peaceful, present moment awareness, stress relief
The rent is going to be a week late because I made an error. I thought I was getting a check today but it is next Friday that I get my money. So I figure I had two options. Number 1, I could stress out about it and then my whole day would be thrown off. I would have become upset. Number 2, I could handle the problem professionally. I chose option two. I called the landlord and explained my error. She was very kind, I have shown her kindness when ever I could and she showed me kindness today by forgiving my mistake. This is a great example of what being kind to others gets you in return. The idea of loving kindness is not to expect anything in return but it naturally happens. When you let go of pride and expectations and give kindness just for the sake of loving all beings you bring good karma upon yourself.
I let go of the fear and stress I felt when I was told my money wouldn’t arrive for another week and instead replaced it with feelings of well being. I sat down and experienced a very deep meditation. I don’t even know where the time went. When I left my meditation the time had just passed. I felt like I had only been meditating for a few minutes when in fact it was much longer. I had actually lost my five senses and was in a state of…. bliss… is the only word I can use to describe it. I was happy and free. My mind was not cluttered with stress. I felt physically and mentally good.
I felt so good I decided to show some loving kindness to a neighbor who has a problem with depression. I invited the neighbor over and made some homemade organic soup.. my own creation… 🙂 We ate together in silence which felt wonderful also because I was really able to fully experience my meal. Each bite it seemed had a flavor all its own. Mindful eating is so wonderfully delicious. After we were done eating, my neighbor thanked me and headed for home. I was still feeling really peaceful so I made a cup of coffee and sat down on my old, worn, couch in my little tiny trailer and sipped at the hot coffee while looking out the window. No thoughts were going through my mind, no wanting, no waiting, no stress. I simply was in the moment, and I was totally, completely happy. I just was.
I would like to offer this to my readers. When you are feeling stressed out, first of all try to figure out why. Then find a solution to the problem. If there is no solution then it is not a problem and you can just let it all go. If there is a solution, do what you can and be happy with it. What is done… is finished. You don’t have to move a mountain all in a day, you can use a teaspoon and move it one bit at a time. When you are doing what you can, then you are moving your mountain and you can let go of the stress. Find inner peace and be content with where you are right here and now.
It is possible. I have seen it, felt it, and bathed in the peace.
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January 15, 2010 at 1:31 pm (Uncategorized)
Tags: benefit, blog, calm, emotion, fear, happy, help, letting go of pain, meditation, Mindful, mindfulness, observe, pain, peace, self-help, skills, wise, wisemind, yoga
Letting Go of Pain by Letting go of Fear
Have you ever noticed that when you fear pain it makes it worse? I know a lot of people suffer from back pain and pain that physical pain that takes over the whole body like fibromyalgia. Sometimes, people wake up in the morning and they are afraid to stretch their arms or legs so they lay there awake for 20, 30, or 40 minutes in fear of moving, of starting another day. They expect the worse and they fear it, so when they do move, they get exactly what they expected.
Fear in humans and other creature’s causes what is called the fight or flight response. When we agonize over pain we are fighting it and when we take drugs (illegal or overdosing on prescription, alcohol) or sleeping excessively we are running in fear.
Speaking of running in fear, I just want to tell you that even the best of meditators experience this fight or flight response to fear. There is a story that I heard Ajahn Brahm tell about a monk who was meditating in the jungle. He was saying a mantra as he did meditate. Now, you know, when your eyes are closed it is really easy to pick up on all sorts of sounds and what are small sounds in our minds become big bad things. Well that is what was happening with this monk. He heard a sound, then another and tried to tell himself it was a rodent so he started saying the mantra louder. Finally he opened his eyes to peek and see what the sound was all the while saying the mantra and trying not to lose the state of mind. What he saw was a Tiger getting closer and closer. His mind apparently went blank and his mantra went from One, One, One to Tiger, Tiger, Tiger. He experienced the flight response and began to run out of the jungle and into town but he was so afraid that his mind kept repeating Tiger, Tiger, Tiger and as he ran, his robes began to slip and drag. He of course didn’t know this because he was just thinking about getting away from a Tiger! By the time he got to town he was still chanting Tiger Tiger Tiger but he was completely naked by now because his robes had fallen away from running in fear! Ha Ha. (Sorry, just had to throw in that story since we were talking about fear it popped into my head).
OK, so back to talking about us. Now, I know that you may be thinking to yourself, that I have talked about letting go of pain and now I am talking about letting go of fear but how do we actually do it? One way is with meditation. You do not have to sit up for meditation; you just have to stay awake. If sitting hurts, you obviously are not going to be able to concentrate on much of anything other than the fact that you are hurting. So try laying down in whatever position is most comfortable for you. If you are in a hospital bed reading this, you can stay there. Close your eyes and feel your body. Really feel it. Imagine your toes. Don’t wiggle them just notice them. What do they feel like? Then, move up to your ankle. What does that feel like? What sensations are there? Do this slowly until you have moved through each body part even your eyes and the tip of your head. When you get to the top of your head, imagine a hole about the size of a quarter or so, visualize it like the blow hole of a dolphin. Now visualize a stream of healing energy, blue energy moving into your body on each in breath. Feel the energy move through your body and into where you hurt. See this energy with your mind’s eye healing you. On each out breath, blow out the pain peacefully. We are not trying to force the pain away we are accepting it, welcoming it and letting it out of our body with the breath.
Another way we can help is to try some yoga. Not the kind of yoga we see in the pictures where people are doing some very difficult things with their body but simple yoga stretches. When we build our core muscles it can greatly reduce back pain. One simple yoga move is just pelvic tilts. Lay on something firm, it could be a mat on the floor or something like that. Lay on your back with your arms down by your sides palms up toward the ceiling. This is the corpse position. Then put your Knees up and feet flat on the floor. Slowly rock your pelvis up just enough so that your tailbone is coming up not your whole pelvis just your tailbone. You will feel some tension in your belly. This is just one example. There are several more you can do. If you Google yoga to relieve pain you can see some simple moves that can help.
These are a couple of things you can do. As I have said before, we have to accept the pain and give it kindness so we can let it go. Part of that is recognizing the fear that comes along with the pain. When you start asking yourself what it is you feel, do you feel fear, do you feel sensation, you can start to ask yourself, what your body needs and give it the loving kindness so that you can come to peace. Sometimes, once you get into the habit of doing this that you will recognize something in your life that may be triggering these emotions and sensation. Maybe you are eating a food that brings on migraines, maybe you are ingesting caffeine that increases chronic pain symptoms, maybe you are not sleeping. Then give yourself some credit, you have come a long way to understanding and finally give yourself loving kindness.
That’s all for today. Thank you for reading. If you have any questions or want to hear more about anything please leave a comment and I will respond as soon as I am able.
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January 11, 2010 at 12:12 pm (meditation)
Tags: benefit, blog, Buddhism, calm, Education, happy, help, homework, kindness, letting go, meditation, meditation benefit, mind, Mindful, mindfulness, observe, peaceful, present moment awareness, skills, wisemind
YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT IS TO COME
So many people worry about what is to come, even me! The reality is that we simply don’t know. We don’t know what tomorrow holds or for that matter even the next hour or minute, the next meditation anytime that is in the future. We put ourselves through so much anxiety that we become tired, fatigued or ill. We can prevent all of this by living in the here and now. In this moment! I heard a quote one time that said, “Whatever you think it will be, it will always be something different.”
An example of this would be the past two days of the Body-scan meditation. Day 3 of the meditation I thought that it would be a perfect meditation. I was awake and all my chores were done. I was well on my way to completing an assignment for class, so I decided to do the meditation. During the meditation, I discovered that my shoulders were tight and sore. Then, my skin was itchy. I was restless and wanted to stretch and move. That is when the insight began and that quote popped into my head. “Whatever you think it will be it will be something different.” I decided to mindfully continue the meditation to its end. I was a bit frustrated after, but not all meditation sessions are going to be these great awakenings so I let it go and continued with my day. Day 4’s meditation session began with me not even wanting to do it. I was afraid of a repeat of the previous day. I laid down not expecting much. In fact, I didn’t expect anything. The meditation was FANTASTIC. Then that light bulb moment from the previous day really light up my mind! I stopped expecting! I stopped wanting and waiting and it just happened. I felt an enormous energy run throughout my body and felt peaceful at the same time. I was genuinely happy. Imagine that?! When I stopped worrying about what the future held, I stopped expecting and things happened. I was so moved by the meditation that when I came out of it, I decided I really wanted to do some Yoga and that is exactly what I did. Throughout the rest of the day yesterday, I was mindful of everything I did. I went to bed last night and really slept. For the first time in over a year I slept for a whole night.
So the next time you find yourself worrying over what might happen or what might not happen, please try to remember that quote, “Whatever you think it will be, it will be something different.” We can really let go of worry and stress. We do not have to live in a perpetual state of “What if”. We can let go and let be. You will really begin to see things happen when you stop expecting them.
Sometimes when I am working on my homework, I find it really hard to concentrate. All I want to do is get it done. That too is me working in the future instead of working now. Those of you who have been through college can probably identify. It is really frustrating and tiresome. When I let go of wanting to get an assignment done, the assignment takes care of itself. The words don’t come so hard. My mind and fingers simply take over and the papers write themselves. I have found the harder I work at an assignment the lower my grades. When I just let it happen I get A’s. This is really a profound insight for me.
So that is my update for Body-Scan meditation for the past two days. (I have been too busy to post) and a little bit about letting go of the future and living for this minute. Care about this moment. Make this moment the most important moment in your life because you never know if there will be another or what another may hold.
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